Remember how just the other day I was saying how great 2013 was gonna be and how I was gonna try and be more forgiving and giving.... Well I made it to January 7th before my pregnancy hormones went "Fuck That"
With my social media involvement - blogs, twitter, instagram mainly - We made the decision early on in our pregnancy not to share the name we chose. I didn't want silly things like social media swaying how I truly felt about my future babies name. It just seemed silly and petty and I knew if I shared and there was negativity I would take it too close to heart.
What I did not prepare for was our baby name to get used by a popular blogging mama and how much it has been ripping me up.
Blame hormones or my shitty attitude the last few days or just all around world funk day but I am not able to shake it off. All the "Love that name so cute and different" "So pretty" and on on and of comments has just been grinding on me. "why did she have to do that? Now everyone is just gonna think I got it from her..." on and on with crazy preggo babble.
Now it's dawned on me that - Hello. This is blogland. Not real life people land. While I love the blog community for what it does and allows me to do - it is NOT my real life. Certain people in it have become my real life; but the majority of it is hobby.
Time to take back real life. So am I still upset another baby is out there with my perfect baby name - sure. Absolutely. I would be lying if I said it didn't. But I'm not gonna let it dictate what I name her or how I feel about our choice. (sounds good right. Truthfully I'm not over. But TRYING is what counts. Duh!)